Friday, April 3, 2009

Seriously Is it against the Law or Not?

OK I NEED TO VENT MAJORLY TODAY, MOSTLY SO I DONT BLOW UP AT MY ROOMMATE.. SO AS SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW I LIVE WITH BOBBY'S FRIEND DYLAN, AND HE RECENTLY JUST GOT A DUI. I FELT HORRIBLE FOR HIM, BECAUSE I KNOW EXACTLY HOW HE WAS FEELING, ITS A HORRIBLE THING TO GO THROUGH. I AT FIRST WAS SYMPATHETIC, BUT THEN WHEN HE COULDNT EVEN GO A WEEK AFTER WITHOUT DRINKING, I STARTED TO WONDER? I AM AFRAID MY ROOMMMATE HAS AN ALCOHOL ADDICTION, AND MAYBE THIS DUI WAS THE BEST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN TO HIM. I KNOW FROM MY EXPERIENCE THAT IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED TO ME. IT MADE ME FINALLY TAKE A STEP BACK AND LOOK AT THE PEOPLE I CALLED FRIENDS? IT MADE ME SEE THAT HOLDING ONTO SOMETHING/SOMEONE SO NEGATIVE WAS ONLY GOING TO HURT ME. SO I WAS FINALLY ABLE TO REALIZE I NEEDED TO LET SOME THINGS GO, I COULDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT DRINKING AFTER I WAS CHARGED? I MEAN I WAS DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF AND TERRIFIED.. MAYBE I AM A DIFFERENT CASE, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO THINK NOT. I WOULD LIKE TO THINK PEOPLE ARE REMORSEFUL AFTER SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS? I AM ALSO GRATEFUL BECAUSE I GREW UP, AND I MET BOBBY AND I LET HIM INTO MY LIFE. I KNOW THAT IF I WAS STILL THAT NEGATIVE SPITEFUL DRUNK PARTIER I NEVER WOULD HAVE I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT EH I AM TOO GOOD FOR HIM. UGH HOW ALCOHOL MAKES YOU THINK SO MANY THINGS.. ANYWAY BACK TO MY STORY SO DYLAN JUST CONTINUED TO FIGURE OUT WAYS TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE DUI, HE TOOK MONEY OUT OF HIS RETIREMENT FUND AT WORK, HE MADE PLANS TO SELL HIS CAR BECAUSE HE WAS GOING TO BE TOO EMBARRASED TO DRIVE WITH A BREATHILIZER? (BELIEVE ME IT SUCKS, BUT IT IS LIVABLE!) ANYWAY RATHER THAN TRYING TO BETTER HIMSELF HE ONLY THOUGHT OF WAYS TO MAKE IT SO HIS LIFE DIDNT HAVE TO CHANGE, NOW RATHER THAN DRIVING DRUNK HE LETS HIS FRIENDS DRIVE DRUNK. YA THATS SUPER!! SO HE JUST WENT TO HIS DRIVERS LICENSE HEARING AND APPARENTLY THE COP SCREWED UP SOMEHOW SO NOW THE OFFICER/JUDGE IN CHARGE IS CONTEMPLATING WHETHER OR NOT TO THROW THE CASE OUT.. WTF? ARE YOU SERIOUS, DYLAN HAD AN ALCOHOL CONTENT OF .18 THE SAME AS MINE HE WAS CAUGHT SLEEPING BEHIND THE WHEEL OF HIS CAR IN THE CARLS JR DRIVE THRU AT 4 AM, WITH AN OPEN CONTAINER? UMMM OK AND HE MAY GET OFF BECAUSE THE COP MISSED ONE STEP? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I WASNT EVEN BEHIND THE WHEEL WHEN I GOT MINE I GOT SOLD OUT BY A FRIEND AND A RENT A COP, AND I GOT SCREWED EVERYTHING THAT I COULD BE CHARGED WITH I WAS, AND THEY ARE THINKING OF LETTING DYLAN GO? A FULL BLOWN ALCOHOLIC WHO NEEDS COUNSELING AND NOW IS THE BEST TIME TO STOP THIS BINGE HE CALLS HIS LIFE? IT IS SO FRUSTRATING TO ME, AND I AM ABOUT TO LOSE IT ON HIM I JUST WANTED TO SCREAM AT HIM LAST NIGHT THAT WHAT HE DID WAS ILLEGAL AND HE NEEDS TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR IT. (NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED IN MY CASE I HAD TO STOP BLAMING PEOPLE EVEN THOUGH THERE WERE SO MANY OTHER SCENARIOS BESIDES CALLING THE COPS. I WAS PISSED AND HURT FOR A VERY LONG TIME, AND I DON'T TRULY TRUST ANYONE WHO WAS INVOLVED THAT NIGHT AND I DON'T KNOW IF I EVER WILL!? I GUESS ALL I CAN REALLY SAY IS I HAVE FORGIVEN BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET. BUT THAT DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT I NEEDED TO REALIZE I DID DRINK AND I NEEDED TO PAY THE CONSEQUENCES! I LOST A FRIEND THAT NIGHT, MY FREEDOM, 8,000 DOLLARS AND MY PRIDE BUT I WOULDNT CHANGE THE WAY I HAVE GROWN FROM IT FOR THE WORLD. ) I DONT KNOW IT JUST SUCKS THEY NEED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT A DUI IS, AND WHY YOU GET THEM BECAUSE IF SOMEONE CAN GET OFF ON FAILING EVERY TEST, BLOWING MORE THAN DOUBLE THE LEGAL LIMIT ON 2 BREATHILIZERS, SLEEPING BEHIND THE WHEEL IN A DRIVE THRU, HAVING AN OPEN CONTAINER IN HIS CAR? THAN DUI'S SHOULDNT EVEN BE AGAINST THE LAW ANYMORE!! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO DO KILL SOMEONE BEFORE YOU PAY THE PRICE?~

1 comment:

Valadez Family said...

Wow that was well put...Meg, I feel the same way. Best and worst thing in my life. But when I have had friends get out of a DUI I thought the same thing. I think you should pay for your mistakes and hopefully, hopefully learn from them.